Still trusting in God

God I am giving you all my trust in regards to our finances. Both of us get paid tomorrow and I know alreaday that between the two of our checks there will not be enough to cover the amount that I have to take out for bills. On Tommy's check it will be missing on top of no overtime plus a regular day. I leave tomorrow to go to our annual ladies retreat and on top of not having enough to pay for our bills but I also have to pay for my portion of the hotel room and food and gas to get there. So Lord you are the only way and I trust in you wholly. Thank you that Tommy has choosen to tithe and yes the thought just did cross my mind of there goes more money because of him tithing as well. Now I say that to be completely honest and record it becuase I am believing in major breakthroughs in our finances. I dont want there to be any falsehoods about my writing and I want to be real. Even though that thought did cross my mind I am so very thankful that Tommy did decide to tithe and he decided this on his own. I still have not heard anything back from the job that I had applied for so I am assuming that I did not get it. Things look really bad right now. There is no money for Christmas at all and we are short money. So in the fleshly realm things are really bad and very discouraging and could be very disheartening but in the spirit realm I know that God knows exactly what is going on and I know that God is in control. I do have an odd sence of peace which can only come from God. I have not been dwelling on our situation and have not been so completely stressed out that that is all I think about. There is nothing that we can do. Tommy is doing everything he can do by working and looking to see if there is by any chance any overtime which there has not been and working for his parents. I have been working and applied for those jobs to hopefully bring in money for Christmas, but that is not happening so God must have another plan. So it is completely out of our control hopefully and it is in God's hands. He is a loving, trusting, faithful providing God and I know that all things are possible with God. We have no choice but to trust in God. I do feel however that there is something we need to do to help breakthrough this but I dont know what. There seems to be a step back on Tommy's part lately. He has not been speaking about God like he was there a couple of weeks ago and it feels like he is pulling back and continuing to push forward. At one point he was talking to his mom about favor and trusting in God and with the whole adoption conversation and wanting to pray and talking to our homegroup leader. It seems like it has kind of come to a standstill and I pray against that right now in the name of Jesus. I pray that Tommy would continue to push forward and not give up and press in deeper and deeper and deeper. Please God grab hold of him and Lord the words that were spoken to him at the mens retreat I pray that you will bring them forth and truly meet him. You asked him to come and ask of you and to trust and to seek you, that you are there waiting for him. Lord please let Tommy really see you. He has been coming and asking and putting his trust in you. Please let him know your realness. Please God let him see your presence in his life. I pray that he will see answers to prayers he has come to you with. Pour your glory on him. All over him. Cover him completely with your oil of goodness and grace and mercy. I pray for an outpouring over him. Come God in a very powerful way. Move God like you have never moved before. I am asking you God. I am coming to you and praying for my husband and I am lifting him up. I thank you that I have the authority to do this and I am inviting you to please come and change both him and me to truly become the vessels you want us to be and be used in exactly the way you want to use us. I pray that our trials and tribulations are being turned into testimonies that will be used to spread across the nation to any and everyone that needs to hear it. I pray that these testimonies will rise up faith in hundreds of people and draw them closer to you than ever before. I pray for major breakthroughs. I pray that you will continue to speak through Tommy and use his words to bring forth truth and restorations in peoples lives. I pray that he will no longer sit back and watch but that he will rise up and become the leader and teacher that you have gifted him to be. I pray that words of life will pour out of his mouth and there would no longer be words spoken that are not from you but all words will be your words. I pray a breaking over passivity in his live. I pray that he will humle himself and bow down and give everything to you and invite you to come and have your way. I pray that their would be no more just riding the fence post I pray for new. New life, new excitement, new goals, new desires, new loves, new hopes. Please God pour your love over my husband. I pray that he will truly stand up and take the role of spiritual leader of our household. I pray that he will began reading your word and digging into it. I pray that their would not be a stigma over reading the bible. I pray that he would be consumed with the need to read your word and to seek you. I pray that his giftings will not go to waste that they will be used to glorify you and your kingdom. I am crying out to you Lord please hear me. Please come and show yourself in a mighty way in this family. I know that you already have in numerous ways and that I should not be so needy. I feel like I am being really greedy but I know that you want us to be needy for you and be selfish with you. So God I am praying for more of you. I from the deepest part of my heart want so badly to see you manifest yourself in amazing ways in our family. Please come Holy Spirit. Come, Come, Come bigger and better and more than ever before. I am crying out to you God desperately. Please hear my crys!!!!!!!!