Confirmation

Yesterday I wrote about fasting and mentioned that one of my prayers during this time was a time of clensing and being flushed out for both me and my husband. That God would pour his holy spirit into us just like you would do draino down a drain, and break up and dissolve all the blockages and clogs that was keeping the water from flowing. Water being for us the holy spirit. The only thing that I drank yesterday was water and it was not anymore that what I drink in a normal day, actually it was less that what I normally drink. I had to go to the restroom so many times yesterday. I never do that. While I am at work for an 8 hour period maybe twice is normal. I had to go 4 to 5 times yesterday. I truly believe that I was being flushed out. I am claiming that and believing that God was really working. Last night as I was reading the Power of a Praying Wife, I was just going thru and reading the actual prayers and as I read them I try to always insert my husbands name in place of him or he, one of the prayers in the middle of it was asking God to flush out my husband. WOW!! My exact prayer for yesterday. How neat it is to see how God hears you. I do not believe it was a coincidence. I believe it was from God. What are the chances that I would pray that and than just so happend to read it that same night. No chance. IT WAS GOD!! This has happened to me before. When my husband had moved out and basically told me it was over, he had said one evening that it was going to take a lightening strike for him to come back home. So from that moment on I started praying for a lightening strike. A couple of days to a week later I had started reading this same exact book and I was on the chapter about marriage. At the end of each chapter is a prayer that you can pray in regards to that chapter. As I was reading I came to a part that said specifically said sometimes a marriage just needs a lightening strike. I knew as soon as I read that, that was given to be by God. Again that was not a coincidence. Which leads to another blog at another time about lightening. I experienced lightening more during that season than I ever have before and it was always at very defining moments. All I will say right now is that I truly have experienced God unlike I have ever before and I do know that he is so real and so right there. Thank you God. Thank you for the confirmation of yesterday. I needed that. So I continue to pray and ask God to flush me and my husband out and allow your holy spirit to flow through us and draw us both to you and do your will in us so we can go out and share that with whom you put before us.

This morning I woke up seeing things in the flesh and of course becoming discouraged. I had the thought of fasting pop into my head as I was getting ready. Now that thought does not happen on a regular basis but when it has, I have tried to follow through and fast for the day wanting to be faithful in the possibility that God is speaking to me. This morning I was wondering if this was something I needed to do or am I just thanking that as a method of weight control. I absolutely do not want to fast for the wrong reason. So I asked God to show/let me know if I am to do this today. Later on the thought kind of hit me about cleansing. I want to be completely clensed for God to do in me what he wants to do and not have their be anything that blocks me from allowing God to move. I still did not really feel one way or the other about what to do. I went downstairs and had some extra time before I needed to get Skyler ready. So I spent some time on the couch praying, asking, hoping that God would meet me and allow me to see and know his presence. Listening at first to hear him speak to me or show me something. I prayed and did not really have any confirmation or extraordinary happenings.
I had my lunch packed for today but did not take it with me. It never really was a do I or dont I take it so I just walked out without it. On the way to work I normally pray everyday. As I was praying today I just started praying about being clensed and as soon as I said it, it reminded me of a song that was sung on Sunday by our worship leader who had just written that song on Sat night. The main theme or chorus of the song had to do with clense in me, make me clean. You are more I am less. I lay all my things on the table and Ican't remember the rest but basically trust completely in God. Now when I had the thought this morning of wanting to be cleansed I did not even thank about that song and it just being song on Sunday. As I was praying I had this thought come to me about being soaked in a bath. Being soaked by the holy spirit and allowing the spirit to completely soak into my most inner core and as I was seeing this I saw it as being a chemical that goes in and breaks up all the junk. Just like Draino. You pour it into the drain and it breaks up all the blockages, clogs, and the crap and junk that is keeping the water from flowing. Thats what I envisioned happening through my fasting today. My prayer is that God would work in me and Tommy today. I stand in place of my husband since we are one and I am fasting intercessory for him if that is possible. Through God anything is possible so that is what I am doing. I am trusting that my day of fasting is inviting God to come and pour his chemical into the both of us and that all the blockages and clogs and crap is going to be broken up and flushed out. We are being clensed!! So I believe that was my confirmation to fast today. I know that I am not doing it for the wrong reasons I am doing it to claim my belief in God and knowing that major things are going to happen through this. COME GOD CLENSE ME, CLENSE TOMMY AND CLENSE THIS MARRIAGE AND FAMILY. BREAK UP ALL THAT DOES NOT BELONG AND FLUSH IT OUT. THANK YOU GOD!! I TRUST! I BELIEVE! AND I WAIT AND KNOW THAT SOMETHING AMAZING IS GOING TO HAPPEN. I WILL BE BACK TO WRITE WHAT THAT SOMETHING IS. AMEN

Believing

A year ago, I was going through some really difficult times. On my way to work every morning I would spend my time in prayer. One particular morning as I was praying, I prayed through a vision that I felt like God was showing me. It begain as praying about the storm that was tearing through my world at the time. It was the kind of storm that you see them show on t.v. with all the mass devastation and destruction everywhere you look. Than I see beautiful brown dirt in place of where the devastation was previously. I believe that God had come in and completely excavated all that had been unburied and now showed it's uglyness, and all the destruction. So as far as the eye could see there was nothing but this beautiful brown soft dirt. The kind that is so absolutely perfect for planting in and growing. On this dirt is where the foundation was being rebuilt. That foundation being of God not me or my husband. As I was praying it took me through the whole complete house building process. God as being the Architecht who has already drawn out the plans of our lives and our marriage. God being the Contractor, the builder, the electrician, the plumber the floorer. He was the everything. I cant even begain to write down what all was being prayed and laid out before me because I can not recreate what was said or begain to truly recall the exact detail that it deserves. All I truly can remember is that it was amazing the creation of the story that I was praying. I do know that I had been praying for a complete new beginning. I was praying for complete renovations and was so thankful that God could see into every nook and cranny and could completely clean out and re-do what needed to be done to make the house the way that he wanted it to be. At the time I along with praying was questiong myself wondering, alright God is this me coming up with all this or is this really you. Am I just coming up with a story and just praying from what I know about building a house since a couple of years ago we just built one or is it really you. I couldn't believe that it was me though because I dont think that I could come up with something so detailed and real. As I was driving down the road I past a van that on the side of it in big words said Renovations. It was amazing the timing of seeing this van and never having seen that before. What confirmation! This whole prayer lasted from the time that I left home and ended right when I was getting to work. Amazing timing!
Moving ahead some months, I went to a ladies retreat and the last night every woman was given a prophetic picture that was created specifically for them. As I opened mine, I couldn't believe what I saw. There was a picture of an old delapated house and than a picture of a house that had been completely renovated. The word renovations was pasted right across the new house. The words from God that was written at the top were "look what I have done. I can do better than this. Watch what I do. I will have to come back later and fill in exactily what it said. I was like WOW!! What a confirmation. God was showing me that what I had prayed months before was truly from him and here is the proof and the promise of what is to come.
Again moving ahead some months, I went to a prayer night at our church. There was one being held each night of that week and each night had a specific topic of prayer. This night was the only one that I was able to make it to. Up until now my prayers have very strongly been about my family and marriage. As we were sitting there praying, one individual that had prayed was speaking almost exactly what I had been praying about for my family. It was as if he had heard me pray before and was repeating it. One lady began to pray and as she was praying the words watch what I do came to me and I whispered them aloud. As soon as I said those words, she spoke the exact same words. These words are the exact words that was written on my prophetic picture. And all this just so happened to be spoken that night in regards to prayer over families and healing and being set on fire. Exactly what I have been praying for, for my husband. Those words are again a confirmation of what God is doing in my marriage and I am watching and waiting to see what God is going to do because I know and believe that it is going to be something that I could never have imagined or hoped for. God gave me a promise and I say thank you God. I'm waiting and watching. Thank you God!!!!